Nonsense

Since I'm going through all this nonsense, my posting might be a bit sparse. I'm trying to throw in a few old unpublished posts (see below)... just to keep the blog rolling. Hopefully I'll get back on track soon. Ok, off to move furniture.

Trying to figure out WHAT THE HELL

TO DO WITH MY LIFE.

Wow. Oh, wow. So I took a one week excused leave from med school. Which now, I can tell, is clearly not enough time. In a moment of crises I headed to the student health center to seek a little help... and the Doc says to me "you want my opinion as a doctor or as your friend"? WTF kind of question is that? Our conversation went something like this...

Me: WTF kind of question is that?

Him: Well, as a physician, I'd probably give you some sleep aid and refer you to some counseling, tell you to come see me in a few days.

Me: And as a "friend"?

Him: I'd tell you that I've never seen another student experience the same levels of shit you've experienced and not drop out of school. Or at least take a semester off.

Me: HA! Well, I don't know if you've checked the tuition fee schedule in the last 20 years, but taking a semester off costs me about $39,000.00. And a year of my life. Which at my age I'm not that willing to give up. Plus, frankly, medical school is the only thing I actually LIKE about life right now.

Him: Well, you can pay $39,000.00 and take time off to get your life together... or you can pay $39,000.00 and be back here two weeks from now when you've really cracked... AND you can have a big fat FAIL on your record.

Me: (silently in thought) touche. (out loud) Can I have the fucking sleeping pills?

So I took the script for Rozerem... which is some melatonin thingy I don't really understand and at the same time is like manna from heaven. The shit works. And I don't feel like, well, shit the next day. I also took a week off of school. I also moved. Or rather I am in the process of moving. Which is the bane of my existence.... as I am kind of a physical wimp and as well a VERY bad packer.

Now I have to figure out what to do about the massive amount of work that I have to catch up on. What's more horrible than having to take time out of med school? Having to look forward to DOUBLE med school to make up for all you've missed.

I won!!! Thanks to my readers!!! And thanks Dr. D!

Last Day

To vote for me!!!

F$%@*&! GREAT

Well, life has gone completely to shit in the past 2 weeks. Because a billion people I know read this damn thing, I can't even really vent anon on here... so I'll just say it involves the following.

First, I haven't gone to school in over a week. I missed 2 exams. I have a new house and I'm moving. Alone. My dog can't come with me, which breaks my heart. I didn't imagine the post before last. I've been crying and sleeping a lot, wrestling in my mind about decisions I am making. And I have no money. None.

My cup runneth over. And not in the good way. Feel free to send good vibes my way. Or groceries.