And it's rather shocking how similar surgeon's personalities are. It's as if only people who are young and impressionable with no independent free will or other interests or a mind of their own get lured into surgery... since they are the only ones who are willing to put up with the effin' bs it takes... and then their personalities are shaped by the surgeons who teach them. Then they never change. And the next group will be just like them.
Anyway... It sucks all around. I'm counting the days. And honestly, I'm pretty sad because I sort of wanted to like it. I mean... in a sick sort of way I thought maybe I'd have this huge deviation from my predicted path and do something crazy. But alas, it is so the exact opposite of my personality to be competitive and nasty and egotistical that I know I would be straight miserable.
So. Surgery is officially... OFF the list. Sad face.
I did peds surgery first, and it was fine- everyone was so sweet. I'm doing a neurosurgery elective now, and they are SUCH jerks... except my chief resident who is amazingly nice.
ReplyDeleteYeah, it can be kind of a cock swinging ego fest frat party sometimes. Not *all* the time though, which is probably how some people get sucked in. Just think, 4 more weeks and it will be O-VER. Are you still thinking EM/Anesth?
ReplyDeleteHaha. Yup OMDG, that's about exactly right. And yes. Still EM or Anesthesiology. Not sure yet. Really like both. I think it will depend on how my time in the OR goes on my Anesthesiology rotation.
ReplyDeletei hope people don't think i'm an a-hole! there are jerks everywhere you go...don't base what you want to do because of that. believe me, there are some really great programs out there, and i know because i'm in one of them. i don't know what you want to do ultimately, but if you're interested in surgery, maybe you could do an away rotation at a community hospital (versus academic)...sometimes the "attitude" can be program dependent. good luck!
ReplyDeleteSad face indeed.
ReplyDeleteThis is my one fear about surgery - I don't wanna turn out evil either. It's too bad....
But anesthesia is good.
"I have finally, FINALLY, found a group of people on this planet that think like me. Scary, huh?"
ReplyDeletehow quickly they forget
wow. that was interpreted wrong. what I meant was people that think like me in terms of medicine. getting to the point. fixing things. getting patients what they really need. cutting out red tape that doesn't matter.
ReplyDeleteplease lets be clear. that's about as far as the similarities go.
Red tape, like waiting to see if patients will heal without being cut open?
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